It is not something I'll ever get used to

Everytime someone passes, it is difficult. They could just be someone who I have only taken care of for a few days and it still hits me hard.
I had a patient die on Christmas Eve, well not techinically die on my watch per se, but even still. We I went in to check on them, it didn't look good. The sight of someone dead isn't something I think I'll ever get used to.
Why is it when we die, it is usually with our eyes open? Is there something that is symbolic about seeing the world as you know it for one last time? Ugh, it was tough weekend, filled with lots of death and dying at work.

Pile it on...I can take it

I know that this sounds terrible, but there are days when I just sucked at my job and couldn't handle it. If was terrible at what I did and couldn't get everything done, I might actually get some help. Instead, i run my butt off and get it all done with (minimal I might add) overtime. Granted I have probably only ever gotten out on time 3 times since i have worked there and usually have anywhere from a half and hour to 3 hours of over time everyday just to get things done. I have no idea what a normal 40 hour paycheck looks like...and I think should know what it looks like. Hopefully things will turn around soon.

Love for a lifetime...

Everyday there is this man who comes in to see his wife...everyday. It makes my heart melt. I want that!
There are days when she doesn't know who he is, but he comes faithfully. I admire him, I admire them. That is what true love is.